I realized that scars of the past are the hardest to hide and hardest to get rid of. If you sit and dwell and pick at the scars all they will do is come back worse.
I can say to me I had a bad childhood
, that’s my excuse, but it’s not. I have no excuse of why I would dwell in a past that I cannot change. I did for many years thinking my life COULD be different. I COULD be married, I COULD have kids, I COULD have done this or that if my life was different. But IT’S NOT. I lost myself for many years that I don’t even remember who I was or am.
After I met Jesus things started to change, but it has taken years for the scars to get mended. It has taken years for God to tell me and for me to listen, ‘It’s time to move on’. I am finally doing that.
God is doing amazing things in my life. Why not look at what God has been doing in my life? Why not look at what God can do through me? I am not a lump on a log, I am a human being who has a voice, who God created to do amazing things with. If I sit back and let life go, then I am unworthy. Worthiness comes from God becomes to Him I am worthy of it all.