He sees; He knows 

I changed my career path a few months ago, I followed where I felt God was calling me. Late last month I began questioning if it was where God actually called me. I found out my “contract” didn’t start till August. I found out I wasn’t getting paid for July. My initial thought was its over before it begun. My anxious thought was to throw in the towel, because I felt God didn’t call me here. Instead of giving up right away, I fell to my knees.
 I barely afforded rent. I couldn’t fill up my gas tank in my car and I couldn’t pay my car payment. But I tried to not let fear and anxiety take over. My prayers were so much more then the prayer, “God get me through this”. It was remembering of all the things He got me through, it was living that out and fighting off the dark cloud of anxiety that was trying to over take me. 

On earthly paper nothing added up. But God doesn’t go by what we see, He goes by what He sees, and He sees us struggle and fight. But he lets us walk that path because He sees what is laying ahead for us.
He’s got this, so give up the struggle. God called you where you are in the moment, so do what He called you do in that moment. Eventually, you’ll stop looking at your feet doing the small things and kicking the ground and you’ll lift you head up and start running towards Jesus and realize that life isn’t about you, it’s about him. 

Guilty Voices 

I’m guilty of a lot, but one thing hit me tonight. 

I was the advocate who stood up to remove God from schools. I was an advocate for seperate church and state. I was an advocate for removing God from this new world we call America. 

I’m guilty. I’m guilty of convincing people not to believe in God with facts and so-called “wisdom”. I’m guilty of putting labels on Christians and marking them as weird and full-of-themselves. I am guilty of a lot. 

But God saved me. God sacrificed his Son, JESUS CHRIST. I was guilty of those things, but in Jesus I’m made new. God placed a burden in my heart to stand for what I believe in, I just never realized I was rooting for the wrong team the entire time because I all I wanted to was to be like every other person I knew. I never dug deep, I never truly knew what I believed. I never realized that “fitting in” was a tactic of the enemy. God knitted you together, if He wanted everyone the same, He would’ve made us all the same. 

So many people today are scarred of what others think. Nonbelievers, Believers it doesn’t matter. We look around to see who has their hand raised in worship, because we don’t want to be the only one. We don’t like to pray outloud or in public because we are afraid of what others might think of us. Do you know what they might think? They might envy you. They might want what you have. They might want that kind of faith. So what if you get some who don’t like to feel uncomfortable around those “Christian folk”.  It’s not your job to please everyone. Every though some think so. I am majorly guilty of that. 

It’s a hard battle, but God has shown me a lot recently. It’s okay to be different. It’s okay to have a voice in what I believe in. It’s okay to stand up for what’s right.

Listen, God gave of us a voice not to just talk about ourselves, our drama, and our cozy churches. He gave us a voice to stand up for Him to defend Him and to proclaim His Son, Jesus. 
Use your voice for the good and it can change people’s lives. 

Relationships with God

How is your relationship with God?

I am not going to lie, I feel God is more like a friend than my Father in Heaven. I don’t know when this happened, when I started treating God as a friend. All I know is all of sudden it hit me while driving the other day.

It’s a hard realization to know that the God who created you, the God who knows everything about you, you treat them as someone you just hang out with sometimes. Do you constantly go to Him? Do you pray to Him in desperation? Or Do you pray when it’s convenient to you? Do you go to sleep without batting an eye on the fact you have not once that day talked to God or been in God’s word? or maybe you’re like me, and you feel guilty because you have not prayed and have not been in the Word but yet you still choose to sleep or ignore the fact you have not spoken to God or heard from Him.

Recently, I keep hearing myself say, “I haven’t heard from God lately”, “I feel forgotten”, “Why am I so lonely?” Sound familiar? The answer is I have forgotten Him that He is my God and not my friend. I haven’t heard from him because I don’t give him the time. I feel forgotten and lonely because I occasionally talk to Him.

He is not a friend who is going to give you a call because you didn’t contact them. He may throw signs but its up to you on whether or not you choose to ignore them. Treat God like The God, not your occasional friend. Pray and pray with desperation. Dive in the Word of God and allow Him to speak to you.

If you don’t give the effort to have a true relationship with God as your Father in heaven, temptation is probably knocking at your door and sin is right around the corner. Don’t give into sin because you haven’t been fighting your battles with a true relationship.

Prayer: God, you are amazing. You know everything about me but yet you still choose me. You still want to use me to do your will. I apologize for treating you God more as a friend than who you truly are. Be with me as I continue to strengthen our relationship. I know temptation may be waiting for me, but God please give me the strength not give in. I give you all the praise and all the honor. I love you Lord. In Jesus’s name. Amen. 

Refusing to Fall to the Sword

In Numbers 13 God talks about how the leaders of the tribes of the Israelites went out the promise land, but they came back with a bad report. They came back not believing God would see them through. They stated in Numbers 14: 3,  “Why is the Lord bringing us into this land, to fall by the sword? Our wives and our little ones will become a prey. Would it not be better for us to go back to Egypt?”. Here’s the problem, they already fought the battle in their head and assumed the outcome however, they did not take God’s power and promises into consideration.They simply lost faith because they were too weak in their own ability.

Today, when we hear from God, do we act on it or do we lose faith and walk away because we think we can never accomplish it. If God tells us to do something we should see it through because we can only accomplish it with Him. Stop seeing an obstacle in your life and assuming it’s a dead end. Prayer is a powerful tool, use it. The Word of God, read it. God will see you through. You just have to hold on and be obedient.

There are aspects in my life that I don’t think I can overcome. That I mentally and physically cannot do it. That the effort it takes to do it is not worth the benefit that it reaps. So what if I have this soft spot in my past that I cannot overcome? So what if there’s this health issue that I have to battle, but I don’t have the strength to do it. Here the thing, I’m not suppose to have the strength, if I did, I wouldn’t need God. I wouldn’t need to get on my knees in prayer.

The Israelites simply surrendered their own defeat and their promise Land was not given to them because they refuse to see God through and allow Him to do the work for them. If we put ourselves in control of our own lives we will not have the promises of God in our lives. However, there are aspects of ourselves we refuse to let go control over. Whether it be finances, time, even obstacles and challenges, anything that is keeping you from serving the Lord.  I cannot speak for you, but I can speak for myself and I have to let go . I have to let go of the reigns of my past and my health issues. They are not mine to control. The only thing I can do is be obedient in prayer, seek God, read the living Word of God and allow him to speak in to my life to be able to give me the strength that I need to overcome. These battles are not mine.  The battles the Israelites were to face were not theirs. I refuse to fall to the sword without first seeking God.

Communication 

Prayer is a powerful communication between you and your Father. Most of us including myself forget how much prayer and communication is important in our walk with Jesus. I was not placed on this earth to live a mediocre life, I was placed here to live a great life, living according the Word of God and living Gods will.
Recently, I have started a new way of approaching communication between my Father and I. Let me tell you, it is amazing. It will blow you away.

Get a pen and paper. Ready? That’s all you need, oh wait your missing the key thing, the Word of God. I have been studying and God has been speaking to me through this living Word. Things that I may skimmed or skipped over before. Things that I don’t even compute, but when I sit there and mediate on those words speaking from God through a human being. God speaks to me loud and clear. He’s giving me answers to questions I had on Christianity, that I never thought I’d find. He’s making look at things in my life and evaluate them.

He’s making me realize that I may not be able to change the world, by myself, but if I can change one persons life from the burning out of hell, that is all that matters.

I don’t care if I have to live a certain way to reach people. I don’t care if I have to give up things that are luxury in order to be able to reach people. There are lost souls out there that may have had a bad experience with another Christian. They may heard about Jesus, but if they never see an example of Christ in the flesh then they will never be able to have anything to relate to.

At our church, we has missionaries who devote their lives to Christ. They are there to be a light to young kids teenagers, young adults. They are there to be a living example of Christ so that maybe they can plant a seed, or at least attempt to lay a foundation. I am honored to be a part of a church family that cares, not just about themselves but the city and community around them.

If we never pray, if we never communicate with God. We will never get to see Gods glory in our lives, and maybe the lives of those around us. Someone prayed for me to be saved. 

My challenge for you is to pray your heart out for the lost souls around you, even if you don’t think they will ever come around. I was a lost soul. I was the one who challenged Christianity, but God saw favor in me and invited me into the kingdom of God, because he loves me and I finally allowed him to not only love me but to relieve love back from me. 

Read your bibles. Journal. Speak to God. Just don’t live a mediocre life, live the life God will provide for those who are faithful and surrender to Him. 

Prayer & Seek

There are many reasons why people ask for prayer. If you are willing to pray, also be willing to seek. I am saying if you are willing to ask for prayer and you already know what you can do to help the resolve the issue or problem then do it, especially if it’s personal.

If you are down and depressed and you feel like you are in a downward spiral then call your lifeline, your mentor, or a fellow Christian to help lift you up. A friend is great but a friend can only do so much.  If you don’t and all you do is ask people for prayer to help lift you up, it becomes a constant battle because you do not have accountability or a relationship with fellow Christians to help build you back up.This walk with Jesus was not meant to be done alone. That is why we have the church and the church body. It is why we try to build communities within the church, so that other Christians will be there for you when you need them.

If you are willing to ask for prayer, you should be willing to seek help. God is not just magically change you if you are not willing to put in the work. By stating you don’t want to seek help from a fellow Christian, or a mentor, and you only want prayer, it is stating that you are not willing to use the people God has place in your life for that specific reason.  God puts a person of faith in your life to make sure you stay on the narrow pathway. Seeking help is work, it’s getting out of your comfort zone and taking a step in the right direction. Some people are so weak that their first step is the hardest step they ever take. Bible studies will help, personal time with God will help, but fellowship and mentors will and can help also.

If you don’t have a mentor, find one. A Christian mentor is a great person to have. They are there to help keep on the narrow pathway in Christian walk. A mentor is not your buddy, a mentor is not a friend, though a great Christ centered relationship will be built. Your mentor should know where you struggle, your mentor should know what tempts you.  Your mentor should also know your full story. They are amazing man and women of God, who have a story and a past but are willing to help guide you.

I am no expert but I have battled this myself. If I am willing to finally ask for prayer after personally battling it for awhile, then I know I need to step out and ask for help and surrender to the fact I can’t do this alone and I am not meant to.