I changed my career path a few months ago, I followed where I felt God was calling me. Late last month I began questioning if it was where God actually called me. I found out my “contract” didn’t start till August. I found out I wasn’t getting paid for July. My initial thought was its over before it begun. My anxious thought was to throw in the towel, because I felt God didn’t call me here. Instead of giving up right away, I fell to my knees.
I barely afforded rent. I couldn’t fill up my gas tank in my car and I couldn’t pay my car payment. But I tried to not let fear and anxiety take over. My prayers were so much more then the prayer, “God get me through this”. It was remembering of all the things He got me through, it was living that out and fighting off the dark cloud of anxiety that was trying to over take me.
On earthly paper nothing added up. But God doesn’t go by what we see, He goes by what He sees, and He sees us struggle and fight. But he lets us walk that path because He sees what is laying ahead for us.
He’s got this, so give up the struggle. God called you where you are in the moment, so do what He called you do in that moment. Eventually, you’ll stop looking at your feet doing the small things and kicking the ground and you’ll lift you head up and start running towards Jesus and realize that life isn’t about you, it’s about him.