Are you intentionally ignoring God? or Is it just me?
Maybe it is me. Maybe I am the only person in this entire world who is choosing to ignore God. You are probably wondering why. I realized after journalling that it’s a sub-conscience thing. I did not like what God was telling me for sometime, so instead of acting on it, I chose to ignore. I chose to limit my prayer life, I chose interacting online and on games instead of focusing on the Lord. I chose terrible music, because I didn’t want to be reminded of God’s promises and love everyday. I limited my devotionals because everyday it was reminding me of putting all my trust in Him.
You can say I’m crazy, go ahead.
A few months ago I went through this emotional turmoil with my job. There was a rumor that I was getting fired. As much as I disliked my job, as we all do, I was heart broken. I talked to numerous people but I never could wrap my head around it. My counselor at the time, told me to look at it from a different perspective. She said maybe it’s God telling you it’s time to find a new job. I didn’t question. I humbly agreed. After applying to jobs and getting no where, I started thinking maybe we are wrong especially since after all this transition at work, I became comfortable with my job. However, regardless, the more comfortable I get, the further away from God I become.
The topic of God calling me to do something is uncomfortable for me, because I maybe wrong. But it’s okay, because I know God has his hand in this, I know God is with me through this. It’s a difficult season for me, however, trusting in God, reminding myself of his promises, building back up my relationship with is 100% priority in my life. I need to let Jesus reign again in my life and not my job.
I will not just walk out of my job, but I will seek Him through it. I will seek His direction again in all this. I will trust him if something happens. I will trust Him with my life again. God will never leave me nor forsake me, I just have to not forsake Him and remember He is with me every step of the way.
Prayer: God you are so amazing. You have done such amazing things in my life, that I don’t even deserve. Father, I need you in this moment. I need your direction in my life again. I need to seek you again and build up my relationship with you. I need to not think about what others might think and just lean into you Lord. Lord forgive me. I have forgotten you and your utmost love. I have focused my life in the world and not my home. Lord take me out of the picture and live through me. I give my life to you. I love you, Lord. Amen.